i want to talk to someone, but i feel like no one can ever relate to me
I’ve had my brother beat me, and steal from me,
I had my mother give me up to my father due to her depression and addiction,
I moved to a new city only see that my family continued along as if i never left,
I saw a father who ignored the fact that i was his son only because of the women in his life
I’ve lived a life in the middle always trying to find where I belong,
I graduated high school with honors and am about to graduate with my bachelors degree with high honors (only one in my family to do so)
but yet I still feel incomplete.
None of the relationship I had with girls ever worked out, they actually ended horribly all due to me.
When I look in the mirror I blame myself for all of it, i blame myself as if I gave them all a reason to do so,
But now I see the light at the end of the tunnel,
I see that it made me stronger even thought I feel weak at times,
I see that because of these people I have pushed myself to be better then them,
But why does it have to be this way?
Why does my own family have to be so broken,
I have no safety blanket, no one to fall back to in a time of crisis,
I am a lone wolf, forever alone.